Inhale…exhale…Inhale….exhale… lather rise repeat

Some days I just have to go with the flow, to ‘not’ take life to seriously. But to saunter through the day until its time to crawl in the bed and rest up, to get up, to do it again. You know, do the boring stuff that fills that gaps in life. Honestly for me getting through this ‘everyday ‘ junk can be harder than facing the challenges of life,  not that the challenges are easy, hell they wouldn’t be challenges then would they. But for years and years I had been quite the master (mistress?)  of taking on Goliath and making it work out to the benefit of the many, albeit sometimes sacrificing the needs of the one. During tough times I am filled with determination, I am a calm place in storm, the one who deals with the shit as is necessary and then after the storm subsides, collapses in a heap to emerge 3 days later none the worse for wear.

So it is during these times of calm, with no storm to navigate through and no heaping weeping mess after, just the nothingness of being, that  I’m working on learning to appreciate these days of gentleness. Learning that these are the days for stockpiling the energy to get through the challenges that lie ahead. And I am sure they are out there.  Just over the horizon, just around the corner, just over the next hill….

Om Shanti




The Universe has got your back, baby!

I don’t know why I am always surprised when serendipity comes beebopping in the front door, just when I shut the back door. It has happened too many times in my life that the universe knows just when to lay something at my feet (or throw it at the back of my head), and yet it still surprises me. Two events this week have further reinforced my trust in the universe.

As I slowly begin to move forward with the business of Yoga Therapy, gaining momentum and moving towards  full-time work. I am beginning pick up a few new clients here and there and making some great contacts. But the biggest challenge, really, is where to start.

How to get my foot in the door where I know I can do the best work. Serve the most people. Working with clients, one on one calls to me, loudly. And working through a Doctor’s office where I can get the word out to the greatest number of people,  is where I know I should be. But it felt like something was holding me back and I had a pretty good idea of what it was.

I have taught a regular class on Friday nights for almost 7 years and I love the people who come to that class, but for the last year or so the numbers have dropped and the atmosphere where the class is held hasn’t been quite as good. There have been some rough patches between management and some of the teachers (me included) and as I look back I realize that all the turmoil and drama, which was taking place, was in fact pushing me out. The universe had her hands on my back shovin’ and pushin’ but I resisted, I could not bring myself to surrender, and for all the usual reasons…1] I truly love the people there and I  admit to being veeerry comfortable there…  2] I started the Yoga program there, it was my baby… 3] I have a very strong sense of responsibility I don’t want to leave people hanging and I knew the director would have a tough time finding someone to teach on a Friday and I was right  and … number… 4] well, change is hard.

But I finally did it, I turned in my notice and June 22 was the last Friday I taught that class. I felt giddy, free! I don’t know what to do with myself. I could TAKE a class, what a concept! I could meet my hubby for dinner. We haven’t had a Friday Date Night in over six years! I could go home and put my feet up, walk the dog, watch the news, the possibilities are endless! But the truly amazing thing is what happened next.

I have a dear friend who has been going through her own awaking of sorts and she is a writer for an online publication, well she contacted me that evening after my last Friday class and wanted to do a story about me!…… I know!!!!

I looked around, surely she meant someone else. I can’t imagine being interesting enough for a popular local on-line news magazine. But she assured me I was. So what the hell I gave an interview. She even wanted to use some pictures of me doing yoga. I trust her, and she promised to only use the ones that didn’t make me look too chubby LOL. And while that’s great in itself this whole week has been filled with anomalies. By the following Wednesday all 3 of my regular Thursday morning clients had cancelled. That never happens! Maybe one or two, but all three! Nope never! So while I was wondering what would be the most productive use of my time (laundry, wash the truck, work on files or supplies, put together workshop info) an old friend popped into my head, Rebecca, a wonderful esthetician and I decided that I should get a facial. The hell with being practical, I needed a little me time. So I called her and made an appointment for Thursday morning. Now, I haven’t seen Rebecca very much in the last 2 years and the last time was many months ago. Rebecca and I used to work together at the same facility, but now Rebecca works in a spa associated with a doctor’s office and I had never been there before. After the usual ‘howdy do’s’  she asked what was going on for me and I showed her my new business cards and a brochure and told her that I was finally moving forward with all the plans I had talked about in years past. We talked a lot during our time together, mostly playing catch up. But then she asked me how much room I needed when I worked with my clients, “about the size of the room we were in would suffice” I said, we talked about the different rooms the spa had and she told me I needed to come back that evening to meet the Doctor that she worked for since the spa was having an open house. Before my hour with her was up I had given her a stack of business cards and brochures. She gave me a tour and we looked at the rooms I could potentially use. It was happening so fast. Well I did go back that evening, met the doctor, an internist who happens to be ‘into’ complimentary care and he has given the go ahead for me to use space in his office to see clients.  

So as I sit here writing, Rebecca and I are texting, trying to schedule a meeting to get the details worked out. All because I was willing to listen to what the universe was telling me and then to act on it. I chose to go out on a limb and trust that it would all work out, that shits hard.

So what’s holding you back? What holding patterns are you in that are keeping you from moving forward?

Take a few minutes each day for quiet contemplation and meditation. It’s in those moments of quiet and stillness that we can truly listen to what the universe has to tell us and to know what direction we should take. Change can be a good thing and we can only move forward when we are no longer shackled to the past.

So let loose your shackles and take that leap.

Trust that the Universe has your back baby!


*****here is a link to the article Jen wrote

Om Shanti


Yoga Nidra a resortative meditation / Re-post

Namaste everyone!

This is a re-post from a few months ago. I have been doing  regular Yoga Nidra workshops for a while now and usually let people know that they can access the nidra recording from my blog. But since the original post was a while ago and I have posted many times since then, it is a bit of trouble for them to locate and I had another workshop Saturday, so I am re-posting. I hope you find peace & joy in meditation.

If you aren’t familiar with yoga nidra, let me give you a little background. Yoga Nidra translates “Yogic Sleep”, but it isn’t sleeping. It’s a deep meditative state that allows the body to heal its self on a cellular level. Nidra is one method of Pratyahara, the 5th limb of yoga and the gradually withdrawal of your senses.

Yoga Nidra brings an incredible calmness, quietness and clarity to the mind & body, it also induces deep physical, emotional and mental relaxation. Yoga Nidra takes us through the many layers of awareness, down through the levels of consciousness and into our sub-conscience. In Yoga Nidra our brain moves beyond sleep & dreaming accessing the healing Theta waves & the restorative Delta waves, you are deeply relaxed and yet still in a state of awareness. It is deeply restorative and allows the body to completely de-stress.

I recorded the session, so if you‘d like to join us please make your self comfortable  by coming into savasana. Cover yourself with a blanket and place a bolster or pillows under your knees this will help your hips and lower back to be comfortable. This recording is about 35 minutes long, so allow yourself plenty of time. Give up any expectations of what you will experience in Yoga Nidra, and simply allow yourself the opportunity to relax. Relaxing takes practice, so meditate often and use this audio whenever you like.

I made the choice to have it hosted on YouTube, since YouTube is a video site, I had to make a video for it. So I just grabbed some flower pictures from our garden last year and some snowy pictures from last winter and made a slide show.  The picture quality isn’t the best and this is my first attempt at a YouTube video. Since I plan on uploading audio podcasts of live classes & workshops I’m going to research other hosting & posting options.

But hey, don’t worry about what it looks like just close your eyes put your head phones on and kick back.

Om Shanti